Zippo.

Absolutely nothing to blog about today. I have not left the house and nothing has happened at home. It is still hot, ooh and the electricity was out for an hour or so earlier.

I've been eating M&M's nonstop and I feel like throwing up now :/

Well, obviously the electricity is back on now so I'm going to go stand in front of the fan.... it is hot!

The big five-ohh.

The 50th post on Blog-it-Giorgia!

Yayyy, go ahead celebrate.
I did with a mug of hot chocolate milk!

I watched part of the Royal Wedding earlier while eating dinner.
My favorite part was when
Prince William struggled
with the ring.
I busted out laughing for that one.

Today was a roller coastery day.
Mom and I argued a bit about me going to school this semester.
The original plan is that I take a break and it's the plan I want to stick with.

What else. Well my trusty resource (Facebook) implies that my best friend from the 6th grade got a tattoo of her boy friend's name and now might be pregnant. Am I the only one in my lovely group of friends that has not had a pregnancy scare? Geez :/
I wish her all the luck, and I totally asked that there be a Nicole somewhere in the baby's name if it is a girl! :)

Mom and I went out today for some furniture window shopping. We've thrown away the seats in our livingroom so it is bare now. I've been counting how many days I've had to sit on the floor and it is day 5! Wow, 50th post on day 5 of being couchless. Just a random thought.

We saw a really nice 3 piece set at Ocampos for P15,600. I'd like that to be our couch but I'll probably counting the days of being couchless for a while. Other than sofas, we looked at refridgerators, televisions and dining sets.

After the window shopping, Mom and I bought Shaomi and went home. It is getting very hot and humid here and long periods of time outside is not enjoyable.

Also, earlier this evening, I heard from Jamie over Facebook... that ole trusty Facebook. Anyways she's doing fine and they are going to go out for dinner tonight. I didn't get to ask her how was her flying experience.
When she was still in Olongapo, I saw her about once or twice a month. I was fine with that. But now I miss her so very much! It's a different feeling knowing someone you're emotionally close to is in another country. I want her to come home already!

I am about to go to bed because I am kinda sorta tired.



Here's to 50 posts!

It's raining, it's pouring!

Not really anymore, but it was earlier this evening!
Jamie already left and is somewhere in the sky, between Dubai and here.
I wonder how she is doing, I already miss her!

Because it rained, it is a bit more humid than the last 3 days.
The heat earlier was just killing me!
I couldn't sleep because I was so uncomfortable.
But when it got dark and it started to cool down,
I took a 2 hour nap!

I just finished updating our Family Events and Updates blog...
wait, I think it's Family Updates and Eventives.
I can't remember :/
Give me a break, I've only had it up for a couple of days.

Now I am doing a little more research for a vacation
to Mall of Asia in Manila.
I'd like to stay there for 3 days and 3 nights.
It'll be Mom, Billy and I.
I found a really nice hotel for a really good price.
I'm still trying to look for the catch.

I've gotten into planning events lately.
Parties and vacations.
I like laying out the plans and costs
and I'm quite addicted to
having a generous budget
but saving in certain aspects of the vacation
to be able to put that money towards
other aspects.
We could stay at a 2 star hotel, save P1,000/night
and put that towards things like ice skating in the mall.

I've chosen 3 hotels that I'll present to Mommy and Daddy tomorrow.
For now, I am moving to commuting expenses and activities.

Oh, life is good!

Vick's and some pain killers

Jamie is leaving tomorrow afternoon. I know she is nervous yet excited because it's what any other person feels right before a new adventure.
She is off to a new chapter in her life that I'm sure will be filled with happiness, challenges and experience. She asked me what I did when I felt home sick when I was staying with my aunt in Virginia. She wanted to know how to cure home sick. I had to think about it for a few seconds, I thought back to the times when I truly felt alone in a new place.
I told her that of course I kept in contact with old friends and family back home. That helped a little bit but what helped the most is that I made where I was my home. Rather than labeling where I was 'away from home' I decided to make it 'I am home.'
She came by here this evening to say goodbye and grab a few things. We had dinner together before she left. When was getting ready to leave, I out of nowhere thought to grab the camera. I didn't get a picture of her and I but I did get a picture of her and Mom talking. I'll post that up tomorrow.
Billy asked me to go with him tomorrow morning so he can say goodbye to her before she leaves. I didn't cry tonight but I know I'll be crying tomorrow when we're all together. It'll be like when I left for the States 11 years ago, but this time it'll be Jamie leaving. I am for sure going to take my camera.


Jamie is very nervous about flying. She's never been on a plane and movies like Snakes on A Plane doesn't help her case. I've put Vick's and some generic pain killers in a small baggie to give to her tomorrow. Both should help her during the trip.

Yahhhh-whoooo!

About to write another email update to the family. Although my aunts and I are not in good terms because we seldom agree, I still write to them.... it pisses them off :)

I would not do well in the Navy

My shower lasted an hour;

that's because I decided to shave tonight :)

I feel goooood!

I'm listening to Hannah Montana and fixing up the blog, life is good.

So here's something new; I finally lost my sim card so I am now forced to buy a new one with a new number. I guess I'll have to move on too because I didn't memorize his number.

Oh, how I miss him...

I'll wait a few days before I buy a new sim card
because I'll be buying a new cellphone too this weekend!
I am excited, but I'm not sure what color to get;
green, pink or purple?

Things are trying to settle down,

If you're trying to bring me down,

go ahead and try, try to look me in the eye.

Out of nowhere I had the urge to listen to some Avril Lavigne while I was editing a picture on PicNik. This is what i came out with. This was the 2nd picture I edited today and I don't know what to think of it.

This was the first;

Flash babyy!

My name is Nicole-Giorgia and I have a photo taking addiction.

Hi Nicole-Giorgia!

:)

Cousins' night out :]

Angelica went home last week but promised that she'd come back before Jamie left. Jamie picked them up from the province this afternoon, it was dark by the time they arrived in Olongapo. Billy went somewhere with Haydee and left while I was taking a nap. I thought he'd be coming home extremely late but he came back around 6:30. He asked if I wanted to go out for a little bit. I didn't know that Angelica was back in town until he told me that they were waiting for us at Jollibee's. I quickly got dressed and waited for him to finish getting ready, he was all sweaty so he wanted to jump in the shower before we left. We met Angelica, Aaron, Jamie and her boy friend. Jonathon left as soon as we got there, Jamie said his sister was calling him.
We rode the yellow jeepney to Brew's. Tonight was Aaron's first night at a bar! Brew's was still empty because it was a bit early. People don't usually start coming in until about 10.
Anyways, us girls had iced tea and Billy had a San Miguel light. We also ordered Lumpia Shanghai. Aaron already ate at Jollibee's so he wasn't really hungry, he just liked the tea.
We left and walked down Magsaysay. Most of the places on Magsaysay are bars and clubs so the streets are still alive at 9:30.


We went into second hand stores. Jamie is leaving soon, on Thursday to be exact! She's buying most of her things now because clothes and some other goods are cheaper here than in Dubai. She ended up buying to blazers. It was late in 'Mother and child's' time. Aaron's eyes were red from tiredness so we decided to go home. We took a jeepney from Brew's to the Caltex on St. Rita's corner. From there we took a tricycle to the corner of Forestry. My world here in Olongapo is a bit small. Almost all public vehicles know the name of every neighborhood and big businesses.
Angelica and I brought home Aaron. Billy took Jamie home so he could talk to Jonathon's sister. Jonathon's sister will be the one who'l traveling with Jamie and Billy I guess just wants to make sure she'll be aliright.
I am so glad we had a night out together before Jamie leaves. I am so blessed that everything that happened last year sent me home here because it would have been another long 2 years before I would see her.
Jamie is contracted in Dubai for 2 years. I'll be heading back to the states some time this year and I don't know when I'll be coming back to visit. I've had such a blast being here for the last 5 months so I hope that it won't be too long before I visit again.
I am very close to Jamie, Angelica and Billy. Their mother, my aunt Malou, was the one who took care of me while I was growing up as a baby. Mom worked long hours at the bank but she knew my aunt Malou would take good care of me, and she did! Jamie, Angelica and Billy are my closest cousins, they're my undercover sibilings. Even though Angelica has had Aaron, I will always consider myself to be the baby of the bunch!... ALWAYS!

I'm hungry.

I woke up early today, around 9:30, because my phone was vibrating under my pillow.
Darius 4-way called me with Felecia and Jason.
Jason was only on the phone for a few minutes before he had to go.
After he hung up, we decided to 4-way Kelly.
Kelly answered and didn't recognize my voice,
Felecia and I wasn't going to tell her who I was but
Darius got left out of the plan and told her anyways.

It was funny talking to them and it made me happy.
I felt like I was with them again.
When I was living with my aunt in Virginia,
they were the only ones who could brighten my days.
I dreaded school vacations and snow days
because then I didn't see them.

I liked school in Virginia.
Freshman year was my favorite.
I really felt alive and I felt like I had everything I needed and wanted.
Not everything was perfect but I was content.

Darius and Felecia were and still are my guardian angels.

Oh yeah, I was going to write about how hungry I am
... but it's time to eat so I have to go!

Jump in!

I think I am going to take a shower. I haven't in 2 days and it is about time that I do so! :)

... right after I finish up my Tom and Jerry.

2:38PM

There are some signs that it's back. I had a short battle with it last year but it was only with me for a few months. Luckily I hit rock bottom fast and got the help I needed. I had the medicine, the doctors and I started feeling back to the real me.

Now I feel it creeping back into my life. I haven't left the houses in a few days because I have been feeling so lazy which is so unlike me because usually I dig for every reason to get out of the house and around town.

Today, I woke up at 2:38PM, ate lunch and laid a blanket out in the living room with a few pillows. I sat there and I have been in the same spot since then to this very second. Mom left for church and Billy went to work so I am alone at home.

After church was over, Mom came back to change and grab a snack then she left for Grandma's house again. She asked if I wanted to come but I didn't want to go. I just wanted to be home with my laptop and cartoons.

I think my depression is coming back because of everything that has been going on with my aunts and me.

I have never had a close relationship with any of them, even when I was younger and especially as I grew older. I honest to God would not mind if they were to be out of my life from now on. There is no denying that they help but their help doesn't come cheap. The charge is far more than what the actual help is worth.

They believe that because of the help they've given my parents and I, that I now owe my life to them. No one likes the feeling of having their life tied with a leash and held by somebody else. I especially don't like it.

I hope this goes away and that I don't hit rock bottom again because digging myself out of that hole was difficult.

Nap time!

It has been my favorite time of day for the last week. It's quiet and I can use the computer without the extra eyes.

We just got done with lunch and Mom let them watch t.v while we cleaned up, now they are lying down in the room. Their eyes and mouths are close but I'm not sure if they're actually asleep. Mom is going to go to the drugstore to buy Grandma's eye drops and I'll be here with the kids. I hope they don't wake up or get up before she comes back, she's better at handling them than I am.

Billy and his girlfriend, Haydee, are asleep and so the house is 100% quiet... except the fan. It is on blast because it's summer time and we're in the Philippines. The heat is hotter than hot and I keep the fan on blast and I really don't like leaving the house unless someone is dying or I'm hunger and there is no food. Those are the only circumstances I'd leave the house right now.

Jamie is leaving for Dubai on Thursday. The airport is about 3 hours away, I want to go with them to drop her off. I don't know if I'll be able to go though. They're taking a van and the ones for sure going are Angelica, Billy, Jamie's boyfriend and his sister. Hopefully there will still be room for me.

There is a man riding in a jeepney full of watermelon with a very loud speaker riding around town. He is not far from the house right now and I can hear him now. He's funny, screaming whatever comes to mind to get customers to buy.

Holy Week; Friday

The Philippines is the only nation in Asia where Catholicism is the dominant religion of the people. Because of that, Holy Week is a big holiday fest. Nearly all the stores were closed today and there were a couple of parades going on around town.

All week there have been groups of people walking long distances carrying huge crosses and other such painful things that we think of when we think back to when Jesus was crucified for us. For the most part I have stayed home for the last couple of days, I don't even go down to Grandma's house... except for a few check-ups on Grandpa.

Tuesday morning I went to Forestry with Angelica to buy tomato sauce and bell peppers. On our way home, about to cross the street, a group of men carrying this huge, black cross walked past us. They stopped in front of the stairs that goes up to the house and I freaked out because tradition around here is that if the man holding the cross stops walking he is beaten by the other men that he is with. I was really not up to see that traumatizing event. Thank goodness they had just decided to stop so they could switch backpacks, after they kept walking along.

Today is Good Friday and I shortly left the house to buy some snacks and dog food, thank goodness those stores were open. My uncle had come up here to check out the kids and to talk with Mom. They talked for a while. The kids helped me feed the dogs and chickens and watched while I played the only song I know on to play on the guitar, The Way I Loved You by Taylor Swift.

The dogs began barking and I saw that our family friend with her grand daughter were visiting. My uncle was not about to sit and listen to girl talk so he left when they arrived. It began to get dark, the kids took their baths and the pets were all fed. Something, I just don't remember, led to us talking about the jack fruit tree in the backyard. Us, being the women who have super hero strength, just had to climb it to get some.

Jellie was first to go up while Mom and her grandma held the ladder. I was just useless and ran inside to grab the camera. Something just sparks in my creative noggin when memorable moments are about to happen.

Then I just HAD to go up, mostly because I wanted a picture too.

Driving me bonkers!

It is Friday night and my 2 younger cousins have been with us since Monday. That's about 4 days. Dorothy is 7 years old and Ives is 9. No matter how behaved children are, too much time with the ones you're not familiar with can be a hassle. Can you imagine my situation, these children are not behaved!

They lack manners and just don't know boundaries. They aren't the devil's children or anything but every child comes with typical problems; asking too many questions, doesn't get the idea you want to be left alone, won't let the dogs be... you know, those usual complications when you volunteer to take children in for a week.

I can't last a full week, Mom and I will be racing to the crazy people place by then. We're giving them back tomorrow after their routine nap time. I'll let at least a month pass by before I volunteer again for such a thing again.

6 things I'll do in life;

1. Publish my poems and thoughts.
2. Adopt a child from the Philippines.
3. Give 100 hours of volunteering.
4. Build my parent's dream house.
5. Senior year Spring Break with my 2 best friends.
6. Tour Europe.

We WIL stand.

Is that weird?;

that I still think of him and his hugs when I see snow?

What do you want to be when you grow up?

I want to be happy.

I'm sure having a big house, 4 cars and a maid is a nice life but I wouldn't mind not having any of those. I wasn't born that lucky and I'd be too lazy to live that life style. Unless luck strikes me twice and I win the lottery, I won't thrown away my money on a house that is bigger than what I need and 12 extra tires when I only need 4.

There's a lot!

I've been so behind on my blog :(

But here's everything since the last post!;


April 01, 2011 was graduation night!
I was so happy, excited and nervous!
Tears ran down my cheek before I walked onto the stage
and again when I got off and walked over to Mom to give her a big hug!


There were so many graduates
and a couple of guest speakers with lengthy speeches!
The whole thing,
from Graduate's Mass to the last name called
it was about 11 hours.


Graduation was finished around 11:30PM.
Mom was exhausted but she agreed to take Kris and me
to Brews, the bar where Billy works.
I love it there!
They only play acoustic music and
it isn't impossible to have a conversation with people.
The manager ordered us these really yummy
ice cream treats and ordered Mom a drink.


When we got home,
it was about 1:30AM,
Mom and I found our rabbit's dead body out front.
Alex barried him in the front,
I miss Tony :(
He was my first pet and he was so adorable!
He was smarter than our dogs and Mom also adored him!
R.I.P Tony


Saturday, April 02
my cousin Angelica came with her son Aaron!
Everybody around here loves Aaron
because he is so adorable and sweet.
It's hilarious teasing him,
he's scared of the dogs so it's kind of funny watching
he reacts to their playfulness!



Sunday was my graduation party,
family and friends were invited!
Everyone had a blast
and I was so thankful that everyone decided to put their differences aside!
The beginning of the day was a bit stressful for everyone
but it ended wonderfully;
a slow dance with my drunk uncle :)


Jasmine has been so hyper lately.
She cries when I leave her to go to the store
which is about 15 feet from the house.
She's really cute and adorable
but I still have trouble leaving their house at times.
She'll cry but I've recently come up with something new.
She is scared of Beanie and Shugar because they are too rowdy for her,
so before I leave I'll tell her
that the dogs are getting hungry and if she comes with me
they might bite her... it has worked every time so far :)


And of course there should be a pretty good
reason of why it's been a while since the last post...
but there isn't.
Just the lazy summer days have gotten to me.
I wake up later than Billy now,
and he has work until just before the crack of dawn.
I stay up late on the computer but far from blogging.
I've been going back to all the internet
games I used to play years ago like;
clubpenguin
cake mania
&& every other Mania games.

Are you cereal?

I was sitting next to a woman and her 2 young daughters at an internet shop earlier.

She was complaining abut the computer being so slow, and she was loud about it.
She finally took her daughter's computer.
The girl was under 10,
she was on FaceBook.
That itself was a little funny to me; she was going through her notifications and everything.

When her mom took over the computer she was using,
her mom wanted to do something on Fishville or some game like that.
She saw one of her daughter's FaceBook friend.
The guy was a bit older than me and his default was of him shirtless.
The mother didn't know who he was
but the daughter claimed to know him...

Then her mother went through the guy's pictures
and saw her young daughter's picture in one of his albums.
All this time I'm sitting next to them,
my jaw nearly to the floor.

Then after that,
the mother let her daughter back onto the computer she was using.
She told the two young girls that she'd come back for them in a while
and asked the guy at the front not to let them out of the shop.

Wow, there are really stupid parents out there.

Oh dear,

I have gotten so behind on blogging!
A lot has happened in the last week!

Graduation was long but fun.
It was the end of high school
but the beginning of something so much bigger!

Thanks to my family,
especially Mom and Dad
for making my graduation party possible on Sunday!
It was so fun and I think everyone enjoyed it too!
The karaoke had to be everyone's favorite part!

Mom and I have been busy taking care of things at school,
I graduated but because I come from abroad...
getting my diploma is a bit tough.
But no worries,
things are taken care of!


Happy belated birthday to my cousin,
Jam!
I love you very much!

I haven't yet,
but I plan to buy a new sim.
I'm trying to erase someone from my life,
it's a bit tougher than my simple plan.
Thankfully I haven't memorized his number,
so hopefully changing mine will help.

One of my classmates here, Charlene,
unfortunately was not able to graduate with the rest of the class
due to some complications.
She hasn't texted, called or talked to anyone
and I"m getting worried.
I asked our friend, Jerpie, to come with me on Saturday to visit Charlene.

I'm going back to the states soon,
exactly a month and a day!
Am I excited? Nervous? A little sad?
All of the above!
Of course I miss the States but
I've also grown to like what I have here.
I'll try to visit soon again!

Today;
got a pedicure with Mom at Let's Face It.
I like it there,
my toes don't hurt!
And they look very pretty!

Click HERE to go to my FaceBook profile for more graduation pictures!

Photo was personally provided and holds no copyright.

Where does this end?

How many times do I need to cry before you let me go?

Is the fight worth it anymore? We both know that the end is near; there won't be an 'us' anymore, was there ever?

I'm not waiting anymore and I'm not running after you anymore,